Life
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Kingdom Work
Kingdom work is wiping noses and blowing kisses and whispering to my kids Jesus loves them as they fall fast asleep. Kingdom work is kindness to a stranger and encouragement for a co-worker. Kingdom work is sitting with a friend in the darkest of circumstances and offering nothing but my time and presence and silent prayers. Kingdom work is self-sacrificial and laying down my own ideals for whatever God is calling me to. Kingdom work is not irksome or proud or haughty but proclaims boldly with love that Jesus is the way, the truth and the life. Kingdom work is the smallest of the small and the little decisions that…
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My Story- Part 9
There we were. We had learned that church and ministry didn’t have to be ugly. That leaders in the church could be kind. So, with this in mind, even though they had a smoke machine, we joined a small church launch called Discover Life Church in 2014, also known as DLC. I could sum it up nicely- say the past 7.5 years have been awesome (they have), that God has done amazing things (He has), but for me, the process to see myself as a church leader, a pastor even, has been one marked by a lot of changes, a lot of ups and downs, and many difficulties. There was…
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Fill up
I am writing today, not to continue my story, to delve fully in to my deconstruction process will take time I just do not have today. I will definitely be continuing next week. However, today I just wanted to pop in with a gentle reminder to all of you out there who follow Jesus. To be overflowing we have to fill up with something. Let me reiterate that one more time, to overflow we have to fill up first. What does this mean, you may ask? I am asking myself the same question. But I felt the Holy Spirit whisper something to me this morning. “I will redeem the time.”…
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My Story- Part 5
*There is nothing graphic or specific in the following post, but please do not read if you are an abuse survivor and triggered easily* For anyone just joining in on my story, I start here. If you have been reading along with me for the last few weeks, thank you for being here. I did not know that some of this needed to be written, but as I wrote today’s the tears flowed, because the heaviness of what I have been delivered from was tangible to me. I pray that if you are in the same place, needing a burden lifted, this story gives you hope that Jesus can and…
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40 Christmases
I am going to take a break from the “My Story” posts for the Christmas season. They will be back next year. But, before I hit an official pause to celebrate this time and really take time to ruminate over all that Christ has done in my life and all that it means that he came to earth, I thought I would make a list, reminiscing over my past but also celebrating the present, on my 40 favorite things about Christmas. Seeing as how this will be my 40th! Some will be meaningful, others just for fun. I love studying the meaning of numbers from scripture, and it was amazing…
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Holy Spirit Led
It’s a “burning, burning, yearning” …not The Supremes kind, or even The Tainted Love kind. No, it’s better than that. This, y’all, THIS is a full on love story from a Savior. The way that God has guarded me, guided me and kept me from decisions that would have lead to more self-reliance, is nothing short of amazing. In so many ways he has pursued me, and now it’s my turn. To pursue God, at whatever cost comes. And do you know what? I don’t live in fear. I know that life will happen and things will be thrown at me, but today I say, bring it! And, that fear…
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Intentionality
So….I wrote this a minute ago, but alas. I didn’t actually post it, so better late than never, right? The kids were all up before 8:30 today and on time to school for the first day back from winter break. It’s a (late) Christmas miracle. That doesn’t sound super early, I know. But we have the benefit of later start times in our district and two girls who like to sleep in. Now, go knock on wood somewhere for me, k? It’s such a small thing, but it made my morning feel better somehow. Like we did something right. And we did. We were intentional about bed time last night…
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My truth about weariness
Every week or so (yes! it’s that often) I feel like I hit a wall. I have to take a step back, mentally check myself, go through all my to do lists and remind myself what’s really important and what’s not. Today I was having one of those days. I worked hard yesterday. I cooked a lot of food. And my kids were particularly, how do I say it? Off the chain. Sorry, there’s not another way to describe it without using potentially offensive language. So, I come home from school drop off and think about simply curling up in a ball on the couch. Then I decide no, I…
